Project Say Something: Because I'm an Idiot

There used to be a joke in my family that it was a good thing I had physical proof that there was a brain in my head (MRIs, CT scans, etc) because otherwise there would be some serious doubt. (It was a joke – we all knew it. *I* knew it. Chill. I’m not permanently scarred because my family picked on me.) Sometimes I’m not the brightest bulb in the box. Choosing the topic for the week this week was one of those times.

I say, “Hit random on your iPod and list the next 12 songs.” Except that… I don’t think I even HAVE 12 songs on my iPod. If I do, it’s not many more than that. Right now all I have are the one-offs from CDs I wanted to get rid of but liked one or two songs from so kept those. So where’s the fun in that? The diversity? Nowhere, I tell you. But! I asked the question, I’ll play along. (Had I been smart about it had any time whatsoever, I would have quickly added a whole bunch of stuff like I need to anyway. Someday I’ll get to it.)

So my totally lame, lack of any musical diversity or good taste whatsoever, list:

1. (Can’t You) Trip Like I Do – Filter/Crystal Method
2. Falling Slowly – Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova
3. Maria - Blondie
4. Not an Addict – K’s Choice
5. Return to Me – Dean Martin
6. RPM – Sugar Ray
7. Salvation - Cranberries
8. That’s How You Know – Enchanted Soundtrack
9. Wild Horses – The Sundays
10. 16 Horses – Soul Coughing
11. One – Foo Fighters
12. Cell Block Tango – Chicago Soundtrack

Wow. This really makes it look like I have completely crap taste in music. (While some may believe that really is the case) I swear this is not a good reflection of what I really do listen to. I just wanted to get rid of most of those CDs but liked a song here and there. I so need to go update my iTunes……

Project Say Something: Fate

Do you believe in Fate? How has it impacted (or not) your life?

I don’t think I do. The idea that things are pre-destined, that no matter what choice is made, the outcome is set in stone, I just can’t buy it. I can’t buy into “everything happens for a reason” in small, stupid things (like my stupid house not selling for 15 freaking months!!!), I certainly can’t jump on for the big things. I don’t have much more of an answer than that, really. I can’t say that it does or doesn’t impact my life because I just don’t pay enough attention (to that or much else – I’m a bit of a space-case if you didn’t already know). It’s a romantic idea (and not just the romantic version of fate), but not one that I can stand behind.

Project Say Something: Expecto My Patronum

If you had a patronus what would yours be and why?

A Doberman Pinscher.

Because wow! are they stunning. And ferocious if they need to be.

But that’s not really why. Mostly just because it’s an incredibly beautiful dog.

So Sweet

She had been cuddling with the baby, right up under her chin. But I'm not so quick with the iphone camera in a dark car.

Mine has Been Gone for Years (And I Miss it)

A few of us were talking to the boss's son today. He's 20ish and a bit of a "free spirit." One of the girls commented that he wouldn't fit well in an "office job," it just wasn't him. He said, "No, you lose your soul."

He is so not wrong.

A Taste of my Medicine

There are days when I would really like to give those who have to deal with me a migraine. Let them suffer through it for a while and then give them my medicine to take it away. Not because I am sadistic and mean (okay, not *only* because I am sadistic and mean) but so they can understand. So they can understand the pain that it is. But mostly so thy can understand all the side effects that come along with it. With the migraine, with the medication and with the migraine going away (I know. That sounds weird. But yes, there are side effects to a migraine going away). Then they may understand why I'm not always at my best. Why I'm not always chipper and kind and happy, happy, happy. And why sometimes I seem like there is no brain in my head. I found one person who "got it" (She'll be a friend for life for that reason alone!), I promptly ditched her for another company but for a short while, it made me feel a little, tiny bit less alone in this battle. That made a huge difference because I always feel so alone in this - no one gets it, no one has any idea. How can they? Why should they? It's terribly frustrating.

That's my rant for the day. And I'm finished.

Project Say Something: Super-Powers

If you could wake up tomorrow having gained one ability or quality, what would it be?

Well, time travel.

But really - patience, understanding and the ability to not freak out over the stupidest, most ridiculous, harmless things. I am a drama queen. I am a glass half-empty. I am an avid subscriber to Murphy's Law. I am an emotional basket-case. Therefore, it's in my nature to freak out over every single thing. I'd like the ability to not have to do that anymore. It's exhausting.