We were having a conversation at work the
other day about how time seems to go by so much more quickly as you get older.
And then even more quickly once you have kids. And even more quickly with each
kid you have. I wouldn't disagree. WHERE did 2009 go? Oh right, I was pregnant
and miserable the first half and then in new baby stupor the second half.... So
trying to pin anything down at all is a little difficult and yet, I will try.
The 5 biggest events of 2009 for us were -
well, wow, this was a really crazy year. Dan's company went crazy and a portion
spun off to make a new company giving him an entirely different job. I got a
new job after being lucky enough to have 5 months with Madeleine. We moved in
to our own place after having been with friends and family for - what some days
felt like forever. And, yes, I'm going chronologically and not by importance
because of course the best part is having the little monster baby. ()Who
totally rocks, by the way.) And the fifth biggest event? We survived. Intact.
All still breathing, all still together, all still happy. And looking forward
to yet another year. With just a little hope that this year is definitively
better than the last two.
There are a few things I am looking forward
to this year. While we have no grand plans, no big dreams or life-altering
events in the works, there are a few small things that will be nice to see take
place. We'll be moving again and oddly enough, yes, I am excited about that. I
just wish it were an easy decision as to where. (Yes, it's still in Utah, we're
not going anywhere.) I'm looking exceptionally forward to being able to put the
baby down and let her do her own thing so I can get things done on occasion.
But I am by no means going to rush that. (I often tell myself when she won't
stop screaming or won't sleep or won't let me put her down that it will all be
gone too soon so enjoy it, funny the difference that makes.) I also look
forward to her sleeping schedule getting a little better so maybe I can get a
little more sleep. And on that note, the other one's too. Maybe. That could
just be a pipe dream. This is also the last year Miss M will be in day care
full time. Crazy. And cool. But mostly crazy. I guess, mostly, I'm just looking
really forward to moving. Yeah, that's the biggest.
I am not one for resolutions but there are a
few things I would like to see myself do this year - a few random goals I
guess. I really want to regain control of me and who I am. I feel like I've
lost that. The goal really is figuring out how to do that so that I can. Debt
reduction, of course. That's the biggest. By no means will one year give us a
big stride, but baby steps is all I'm asking. I need to get out more. I have
too much anxiety and fear to leave the house anymore and making friends is next
to impossible but I have realized that is something that really does matter to
me. So my goal is to stop making excuses and just go do it. I'd love to say
"blog more" but we all know that would be setting myself up for
failure. So instead, I'll make it a bit more broad and say write things down
more. And take more pictures. Poor Elena isn't going to have any proof she
existed. I need to work on that. Huh, I guess these are resolutions. I just
needed to force myself to sit down and think it out.
And since an all text post from me is just
pointless when I know most people who read this site anymore just want to see
pictures of the stinkin' kids.....
This is how we brought the year in...
December 31, 2008 Madeleine fell asleep at 11:55 PM, missed it by minutes:
And this is how it went out... Madeleine so
excited, screaming the countdown with her cousins and awake for another hour
and a half afterward:
And instead, this time, it was her sister who
fell asleep at 11:55 PM after refusing for hours and hours and hours to only
last 10 minutes and wake back up ready for more. And, of course, I got
distracted on my way to take the picture and so didn't so there aren't any of
her first New Year's Eve party. See. I suck. She does exist, I swear.
And this is how my demon-monster-angel-babies
spent New Year's Day:
In their jammies. All of us, all day. What
better way to bring in a new year than being completely lazy, watching movies
and hanging out having a great day!